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By John A Ortiz, Sgt. USMC
Gray turns to gray,
It was gray, it was shades of
gray.
Holding a mirror to this place;
Once virgin, now ever present,
It was gray, it was shades of
gray.
All pass through the corridor
of darkness.
Once virgin, now ever present,
Gray turns to gray here,
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I wrote Vision Home
over about a ten year period beginning in the middle 80's. I rewrote
it often and time to time I still add or take away parts. What do
I want to do with it? Just share it with whomever is interested.
It is referring to the dead and wounded, and also the overall physical envir- onment we experienced on the Hill. But mostly, I was trying to express how the "total" experience there came to be such a profound part me. My, 'our' once virgin minds/souls
now are a permanent home to images and visions of countless events, emotions
and traumas. I see precious innocent minds of youthful
warriors who were thrust into premature manhood who could
not possibly begin to comprehend all that was happening
within us. The acceptance of our experience had to sink
in slowly over the years as
For me, of most lasting images were the injured and dead Marines being carried to waiting choppers. In my poem I do refer to the first time I saw two guys struggling to carry their buddy. It took me awhile that day to first notice and then accept the fact that their buddy was dead. I kept telling my- self that no, he must have been alive, but his body was too perfectly still the entire time. Gray turning to gray was both a reference to the weather conditions which seemed to be foggy so often. I also was referring to the many times that smoke was laid down during the supergaggles.Also, and mostly gray turn- ing to gray was my was of expressing the seemingly endlessness to our time there. It was so very difficult to not feel overwhelmed by it all. It did seem that all was that was left was the night itself. There were many times that I really felt that we would never be leaving there. In fact, when it was time to leave I was somewhat reluctant to go. Ironically, if given a choice I would probably have stayed. I think I had become a prisoner of my own fears. Fearful of what I was experiencing and yet feelings of security for what had grown to become familiar to me. John A. Ortiz |
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